Back to life, back to reality

Reality has set in. I’m currently sitting on a big pink pillow, typing on my computer, which is sitting on my coffee table, because there is nothing left to sit on or type at. All the chairs are gone, the table I used as a desk for so long is gone, and clothes sit on the floor with me, because there is nothing to put them in. Everything is gone….or almost. I still have those random odds and ends that you are always left with when moving, like dishes, movies, a filing cabinet, an awesome pumpkin that blows up to be 4” big, stuff that you once loved or still love, but no one wants.

I have to mention that a few tears were shed today. It’s the first time I have cried since starting to purge the apartment of my possessions a week and a half ago. Cade witnessed it, and I tried to be strong, but as I watched his family haul pretty much the rest of my stuff off I couldn't’ help but break down a bit. The realization of me leaving hit. Watching the big items leave, like my couch and bed were easy, I did not purchase either and therefore did not have much emotional attachment to them. Things I picked out or purchased myself were the hardest to part with. I know its just stuff, and I can always replace it, but it is still sad to see it go. There are a few things I am keeping, but not taking to Australia. Instead those items will go to Conroe and sit in a closet for a few years until I figure out what to do with them (or until my dad throws it all away). I know its silly, but there are some things I just can't part with. For now, I’m glad Cade’s family were the ones who ended up taking a good portion of my materialistic objects. I at least have the comfort in knowing that (hopefully) my old belongings will be taken care of and appreciated.

I don’t think many people understand how hard it is to get rid of everything you own. Let me tell you, it is hard. Obviously, this is what I wanted and I in no way regret my decision to move to Australia. I am still as excited about it as I ever was, but can’t help but say I will miss some of the physical items I had to sell and give up to get there. All I know is one person in particular better appreciate what I am doing to get to the land down under!